There’s something amazing that happens when you document, or recognize, your emotions. You release them.
The mind is a powerful thing. Consciously or unconsciously the mind is capable of tricking us into believing we need or miss something. For years my mind tricked me through the use of my dreams. The dreams were slightly different each time they occurred, but there was always one thing that remained the same. The same guy was always in them, and he was always doing the same thing; making me love him, or, more specifically, making me believe he loved me. Yes, I knew this guy, and yes, I had loved him once. Long story short, I had given myself to him entirely and got burned in the end. But the thing was I didn’t love him anymore, so I couldn’t understand why I was having these dreams and why they were effecting me emotionally. The dreams kept occurring, and I kept feeling more and more emotionally drained. My mind was tricking me into believing I missed this guy, believing that I still needed him. These dreams occurred for years, not continuously, but every so often they would appear to expose these emotions fresh and raw again. I couldn’t understand what my mind was telling me. So, I decided to recognize and document my emotions in order to better understand. These dreams were stealing something from inside me, and I had no control over it. This painting depicts my most vulnerable self. It depicts the vulnerability I gave to him, which he took advantage of. I am releasing the emotions that tied me to this dream, and taking back what I once gave away too easily. In the end, this painting did exactly what I wanted it to do. It stopped the dreams from occurring. It gave me peace of mind.
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Sarah PisneyArt education major, artist, and mom. ArchivesCategories |